Memoria I

I haven't been sleeping well for the past week, maybe 3, 4 hours day at the most. It seems that my insomnia has come back. I've been having it on and off since i was 17. I would fall asleep only to wake up a couple of hours later and then try in a vain attempt to save what's left of the night, to go back to sleep. Often I would. But by the time i get back to sleep a second time, it's often close to the time I would have to get up. And in the process of this vicious cycle, coffee has become my best friend. Coffee: The one true drug.

The funny thing about the lack of sleep this week is the fact I keep having the same dream over and over again. Well, its more like a "Ground Hog Day"-ish kind of dream. Its the same scenario but played out differently. Déjà vu-ish you could say (though I really hate the Matrix reference but Déjà vu existed long before the Matrix did). Anyway, bitching aside...

The dream is weird, I was in a family that traveled back in time in order to change the future (or what they knew as the present). It sounds either like a really badly written book or a "B"-Grade movie flick. But hey, its a dream!?!?

The funny thing is, every dream I have is an improvement of the night before. Its like my brain is making changes to all the mistakes of the previous night's dream. I guess you could say my brain is trying to make the perfect realistic dream. But aren't dreams surreal in nature?