Off the beaten track

I do not know why I do what I do some times. Often I look at my life and ask myself why did I make the decisions to follow the path that I have taken. I went away from doing things that most people in Singapore would to follow a path that is filled with uncertainties. Most people would look at doing something that would ensure them a good stable job with great prospects.

But I've never saw it that way. I've always gone where my passion has drove me and so often, I would end up in places I never thought for a moment I could ever be in. Right now as I am coming to the end of my post graduate studies; the next chapter of my life awaits. Looking for a job back home in Singapore in an area where I love is a lot harder then I would wish to admit to myself. Part of me is afraid and part of me is excited.

I want so much to work in a museum. To be surrounded by art and history. To be around things that speak from the deeps of time's eternal past. The present is a difficult place to live in, the future looks bleak and filled with fear. The past seems to be the most comfortable place but one cannot stay there. The past is like a place where you can visit but you can never stay. It's like art; it holds you, comforts you, inspires you and then sends you away to the present. You cannot stay but you are always welcomed back.

I'm actually thinking right now about doing more studies. Probably part time once I get a job. And once again, when faced with this idea, I find myself walking away from the well beaten track; towards the path less taken and once again, I find myself excited by the prospects of an unknown journey towards the fulfilment of a dreamer's dream.